Honesty Today...

It's not pretty.

We just received an urgent email update from our agency. It basically pointed to this warning from the U.S Government HERE! I also came across this LONG and scary report of irregularities in Vietnamese adoptions HERE. WOW!! We had no idea. The irregularities make the problems sound much worse than what we had heard initially. I guess I should rephrase that. I don't mean much worse more like, more widespread or higher in number.

Our agency did give some promising info in the email. Something along the lines of .... the President of Vietnam will be coming to the US in June and one of the items they will be discussing will be the contents of a new agreement between the US and Vietnam. The new agreement is our only hope of things getting better in Vietnam. We really truly feel that our agency has not been a part of unethical things that have been going on. They have some of LONGEST wait times of all agencies. They aren't about getting as many babies to their waiting families as quickly as they can no matter how or how much $$. They are about bringing children that need families home to families waiting to provide them.

We are at a place where we know there will be a lapse in adoptions starting September 1. It is highly doubtful that we will receive a referral by then. We are willing to wait, as long as, the two governments are working toward renewing the agreement and have the intentions of working together to provide children that NEED homes, with those homes! We want so badly to be one of those homes.

Is that the plan you have for us Lord? If not, what is all of this for & is it bad to ask that question?
In the beginning, we knew that time could be a factor. Hey, we're busy people with lots to do...we can find things to take up the time. We thought that when the time was right, we'd have a sweet little brown eyed girl, our sweet Marlee, in our arms--in our home--playing with Mommy--lovin' on Daddy. At this point, the difficult part is not knowing if it will happen AT ALL.

If the two governments can't work this thing out, There will still be....Children, in orphanages. People, emotionally invested. People, financially invested. Onlookers, that become nervous about choosing adoption or those waiting for a chance to say, I told you so.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

I know lots of you come here for encouragement and for a piece of hope. I'm not sure if I've done so well in this post and I'm sorry. My heart is heavy today.